The experience of creating this piece will stick with me for a while. It was emotional, dramatic, and deeply satisfying. I am incredibly proud of the result and what I was able to accomplish in a relatively short amount of time, but it came at a cost.
I often have conversations with people about the intense time investment that is required for me to complete a piece, but it is hard to convey what that actually looks like in real life. To say that something takes months is an abstracted concept. What does this actually look like when you have a house that needs to be cleaned occasionally, meals need to be made somehow, pets need to be cared for because they are living creatures that depend on you, there are responsibilities to the people around you…what gets cast aside when there is an impending deadline and it is the 11th hour? For me, the final stages of a project like this is over weeks, not days or hours. That is a lot of time where responsibilities are put on the back burner in order to accomplish the art goal that I have prioritized.
In February 2023 when I decided I was crazy enough to take on this ambitious 16″ x 20″ bookstore with individual books recreated using embroidery floss, I understood that the process would be a marathon. I have been doing this art form for long enough to know that the pace would pick up as I worked towards the background, but I needed to make it through the detailed foreground and middle ground in a timely manner if I wanted to finish it for my first big art show of the summer (the weekend of Mother’s Day). I almost abandoned this multiple times thinking that there was no way it was possible. And then with about a month to go, I decided that I would fully commit and get it done. Every second that I was home and awake I was gluing. I would take a break for dinner that my husband would plan and make and clean up from. I fully relied on him to take care of all of the home tasks that had to get done, and anything that could be ignored for a while would get blocked out of my mind. I had constant headaches and backaches from spending hours anxiously hunched over my art studio desk. I ran out of podcasts to listen to and didn’t have the time or mental energy to find something else to keep my mind entertained. It is a cycle that I am used to by now (and I do enjoy the last drive to the end when it comes down to it), but this was the most I have pushed it to date.
These big projects usually start as a flash of an idea as I am laying awake at 2 AM. But sometimes an idea is sparked as I am going about my normal life and I filter what I see through an embroidery floss lens. That is how this project started. I was at a random bookstore, and all of a sudden I started to recognize the books and shelves as lines of thread. I immediately knew that if I was going to take on an ambitious project like this, it would have to be the iconic Powell’s City of Books in Portland, OR. So months later when I was home in Oregon for Christmas, I made a trip into the city specifically to document the bookstore and take pictures back with me to Minnesota. I had been frustrated because as I was wandering through the maze of rooms and aisles, I had seen an end-cap stating “Learning Boldness” that I thought was interesting, but I couldn’t find it again to revisit for more angles. I was so twisted around and eventually gave up and figured I would make something else work. When going through my pictures once I got back to Minnesota, I realized that I had actually gotten the perfect angle of exactly what I wanted without realizing it. Throughout the process of creating a piece I edit and make many changes from the source image, but I much prefer to root the piece in reality. And it paid off; I have been so surprised at the amount of people in Minnesota who instantly recognize that this is a specific bookstore on the other side of the country. But this piece is about more than the place it was inspired by – it captures the warm coziness of being surrounded by books. The worn spots on the floor where people tend to stand to look at the shelves, the industrial wooden rafters, the chaotic mishmash of colors, the signs to help you find what you were looking for or to discover something unexpected…this piece is for people who love places like this.
I can absolutely say it was all worth it.